I’m riding the Courage Classic for the fourth time to honor Franscesca "Beans" Kaczynski, who died at nine months old of ATRT, a rare form of brain cancer in children. Hopefully your donations will help another family not go throught the heartache and heartbreak the Kaczynski's went through:
We miss you everyday. The hole in my heart hasn’t healed and it never will. I think about how someday in my life – hopefully far away, hopefully long after your sister’s have grown and had kids of their own – I get to die. That means I get to someday go to the mysterious place you went to.
You were so beautiful and so fleeting. Your time here was so short, but I still think of you everyday. I long for those cuddles we had on walks. The fun we had playing in our home. The time I spent putting you to sleep. And I even think about all the fun, smiles, and moments we had in the hospital. I’m sorry about how it ended. I wish everyday it was me. Every single day, I wish I was the one who went.
But we don’t get to pick what happens to us. It was you and I think about it everyday. I hate how much you suffered. It kills me. I’m sorry. I still miss holding your hand, those horrible weeks as you died. You were here and even if it was horrible. I had my baby and we were together. I wish I could hold your hand for eternity. I hope it gave you some comfort.
Life isn’t fair and it will never be fair. But someday Beans, I will die too. You were such courageous Beans, even if you didn’t know it. Even if you had no idea you were because you were just a 9 month old baby.
You inspire me everyday. You inspire others everyday. We won’t forget you. We won’t stop telling your story. I won’t be cynical about the world. I won’t try to be cruel, or sweat things. Because you were what is important. You taught me so much little girl. You were my hero.
Beans, you brave girl. Fly high. Shine on. We love you everyday. You were imperfect, but you were perfect. And we won’t forget that.
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